Exhaustion

“If evolution really works, how come mothers only have two hands?” ~Milton Berle

Today has been a rough day. With these two little darlings, it is impossible to give them the attention they both need. I’m attending to one or the other all day long, and I still feel like I failed miserably in paying attention to them. I leave my DS in his bouncy seat far too often to fix meals for DD, change her diaper, fix her hair, get her toys down, etc. And I leave my DD alone far too long to look after my DS, change his diaper, rock him to sleep, comfort him when he’s crying (because he’s sick of being in his bouncer seat…). During which time she gets outside and starts snacking on the dog food, and horribly the second thought to go through my mind (the first being “yuck”) is “Does this mean I don’t have to prepare lunch?”.

What really breaks my heart though, is that my DD asked to go outside (amazingly, she asked!), we went and got her shoes, and instead of going out with her, I needed to start getting DS ready for his nap. She walked out the door and just stopped and looked at me, just heartbroken that I wasn’t coming out too. (I did get out after DS went down for a nap). And when I was putting her to bed tonight, DS started crying and I had to take care of him. She started whimpering because she wanted me to lay down with her and snuggle.

Needless to say, I wish I did have more than two hands today – I could have used them!